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In the morning, now that the summer is finally losing some of it's energy and the heat is losing ground to the coolness of the night, the day begins with simple routines. A light breakfast, coffee on the patio, some paper, a shower and then to work.

It's that work part that makes the day a dull terror. Last night a friend and I were talking about how people are not what they seem: confident, knowledgeable, in control. That we never know what forces compel people or what fears they harbor deep inside. For me, I am paralyzed by self-doubt about what I do or don't do at work. I am constantly confronted by what I do not know about the industry I work in. Everything comes crashing down at each phone call or each inquiry into what I am doing. I create smokescreens and try to appear confident and self-assured.

The world is always threatening to come crashing down at any minute. Hence, the terror.

The question is: What can I do about it?