This past year

This year was different from so many:
The breakup from Wayne late in the year before had begun a long series of ideas in my mind. A housefire in February forced us to move to a new house and become closer in doing so. The housefire was caused by my own negligence.
The reconstruction of our house provided an opportunity to reconstruct my own life. I left my job in constuction management to pursue self-employment. I thought that independence was what I needed. I did research in renewables and found a deep calling that fit in with both my experience in electrical construction and my desire to make a better world.
During my time off, however, I fell into a pit of sloth and lethargy: depression. This was in no small part because of the separation from the house but also was because of the end of my relationship. There had simply been so much going on during the months leading up to my freedom that I had not processed the changes that had come.
I saw a therapist who helped. I read a book by Wayne Dyer that helped. I did nothing which helped as well.
Somehow though, through waiting and thinking and redirecting my energy into the world some good things happened.
I have connected with some good people: DJ, Tim, Nance, and everybody else who is pleased at the thought of me.
I also have connected with a solar construction business that has provided some experience when I needed it.
I close the year wanting more change: less drinking, more friends, a lover, good work, connection to the larger world, more learning, less waste, more health, more good.