Dreaming of camping

What is in my head this morning, lazing around and needing to get to work but not:
I went out to the usual place for a few beers and was miserable. There were some of the same old crowd but nothing new - nothing - and I'm tired of feeling out of place and forced and corrupted by it all.
I'm working on discipline and freedom, relaxation and intensity, shaking up the routines and making new ones.
I had a dream last night of being with a group traveling and camping. I was playing with the person that I liked and everything was going well and then I went and spent the night with someone else and ruined the situation with the first person. There was tension between me and him and the rest of the group that could never be resolved. The landscape was beautiful and rugged and I wish I hadn't ruined it for everyone else.
What is on the list: gym joining or yoga joining (probably gym), reading and coffee (the new social life).
And work, of course.
C